Saturday, August 11, 2012
For so long I have longed for my life to begin. Longing and hoping for the desires of my heart. Angry and impatient and bitter that things didn't work out the way I thought they should. Hopeless and hurt and confused, I was constantly told; Tabitha, the minute you stop looking it will find you. And my response always was; how do you stop looking for something you want so badly? I was in such a lowly sad place for such a long time. And one day I just let it go and it was the best thing I could have ever done. Even though there are so many things I want to happen in my life, I have finally found peace with myself. And in finding that, I am able to love a wonderful person who has shown me how to slow down. To enjoy every moment. To take every day as it comes and that there is no reason to rush anything. And for the first time, I am not in a hurry. It will happen when the time is right. And the funny thing is, he has no idea that he has done this for me, just by being in my life and loving me.
This journey we all take in our lives is exciting and confusing at the same time. People come and go in our lives that help us grow and change who we are, sometimes in a good way and sometimes not. But every person makes an impact whether big or small and I am thankful for every person that has impacted my life. And I say that because as I am starting my 30's and I look back at all the crap that I have experienced and all the amazing things that I have experienced, I wouldn't change any of it because it has made me who I am!
So if you read this, thank you! And I hope that in some small way I have given you the same!