Sparks or crazy talk

• A relationship in which a person, thing, or idea is linked or associated with something else


• The action of linking one thing with another


• The placing of parts of an electric circuit in contact so that a current may flow


There are many different ways to define any word. For some reason today, connection is the only word on my mind. So it brings me here again.
The one word that makes the most sense when thinking of what a true connection is; is LINKED. This word suggests a connection or a joining.
So then I wonder, how do we know when we are truly connected to someone. For me it is sparks. Or as the last definition clearly defines, an electric circuit that allows a current to flow. A small ignition inside my being. Some call it butterflies, passion, lust, love. It can envelope you with just a look from that person, a soft touch or even just a conversation. 
There are people that I have come across that have ignited such sparks, that I have felt so connected to and want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life being around them because they make me happy. This is not merely a romantic relationship. Or about sex. But I feel as though it is deeper than that. And is something that can be shared with anyone. 
Then I also wonder, will I ever find this with someone that I can and want to have a future with, spend the rest of my life with, share my life with?
 I also ask myself, do the people that I have these "connections" with feel the same about me? Would they have to courage to tell me? Do they even want to? Have I told them? or am I sitting and waiting and hoping that someone will share their soul just because. Without risk? Without chance?
Who does that?? Who honestly wants to take a leap and be vulnerable with someone even in friendship because they then take the risk of getting hurt at some point, don't they. But if that is the case, why do we crave connections, or sparks with anyone?
What is it in our souls that desire this so much but fear it at the same time? Why is a true connection so hard? Why as human beings are we so selfish and afraid to share something that should be so natural and comforting? What is missing?


I am hoping to one day have an epiphany and be able to figure this out!!! And If I do, I plan to share it! Or if you have already figured it out, please enlighten me!